Find someone who will love you through your weaknesses and wonders.
: Izzati Rahim
: Izzati Rahim
: Izzati Rahim
Basecode : PikaChan
2017; Fanfic Recs.
I planned to write in the dark just like other days and listening to a song on repeat makes me feel relieved. I once wrote a love letter to someone and suddenly today I am reminded of it. Those days were beautiful. And if you ever wondered do I regret having feelings, I'd say no. Because what I felt was genuine and I had no one to lie to. I may not be the best in conveying feelings, but when I do tell people I love them, it's sincere. Maybe because I don't talk to strangers and I don't even have friends who I cared a lot, I kept a few because I know I need some. I am not good at telling people I love them, so all I could do was write. I love writing since I was 5, don't believe me? It's okay. I still remember an essay I wrote about elephants in my reading comprehension book for my kindergarten. I really love English, I am not good at it too but as I grew older, I knew the importance of everything and how I love people and English, I need to work hard on it. I really wanted to write something nice, for people to read. I want people to feel the feelings I put in everything I wrote. I do things wholeheartedly since sincerity is what measured of everyone.
I'm gonna write about fanfics today. I have a few of my faves but I'll be listing only two since it's the content that matters not the quantity. I've been reading fics on Tumblr, but now I read it mostly on AsianFanFics or on Ao3 (if I don't have time to read it, I can download it straight to my phone), they're the best platform to read I could say since Tumblr is a bit messy and hard to read on mobile (for me lah). I've been into this fics world since last year because I don't really have interest on reading physical books anymore, it's heavy (I read thick books) but now I read mostly about EXO. Oh, forgive me, I am a very fanatic (read: obsessed) EXO fangirl, excuse me for that. But I read other things too, but mostly about guys being gay. I am a normal girl who likes guy (read: a man) and I am attracted to only men and have no intention of reading about homo that is (read: lesbian). I am certainly not attracted to reading about girls since I am a girl myself and I know about us and I don't want to condemn any girls for being a bitch. I used to read normal books about a guy and a girl but things get boring since Romeo and Juliet had bad ending plus I can't really react to things if it's too normal well I really am a weird person.
1. Anterograde Tomorrow
💋 This one, is so sad. I read this fic on my phone at 3am during my final exam week and I won't get out of my bed because this fic is so sad I think my soul just went for a walk. I cried really hard tho my roommate is sleeping but I remember to at least stuff a towel into my mouth so I won't make any sound. Remember me writing that I wanted to make a house surrounded with sunflowers? This is the ultimate reason. It's not they mentioned sunflowers in it but that is my favourite flower besides daisies. To me, sunflower means hope and sunshine. I don't really like the colour yellow but sunflowers are exception. Because sunflowers are beautiful. If someone would ever give me a sunflower, I'll be really thankful for the rest of my life. [The meaning of Sunflowers. Sunflowers symbolise adoration, loyalty and longevity. Much of the meaning of sunflowers stems from its namesake, the sun itself.] I've always dream on a path full with sunflowers holding someone's hand so dearly and won't even think of letting go. This fic is guyxguy. So, if you truly are a person to forbids LGBTQ or being racist, I don't really want you to read this. It involves death, depression, addiction to smoking and medication, sad feelings and amnesia. I am even crying while writing this, I'm sorry. So, let me tell you this story. What would you do if the person you love, doesn't remember you everytime a new day starts? What would you do if you really love that person, but you can't remember, even you knew it deep inside? It struck me the most when you are dying and yet you still want another day to live by his side but you know you can't. To live a live without regret is what I really wished for all this time. That is why I promised myself that I need to be better and not to regret anything. I'm saying this once, it's dark. Don't enter if you're scared.
💋 This too involves death but this is shorter. This is the fic that makes me wanna write messages in binary code. Life is sweet I tell you. You fall in love, you live together, and then it's death. In between, you just need to fall out of love huh? Listen to me rant please. I really hoped for happy ending, sincerely each time. But I don't really get what it means. At the verge of death, one knows just to wish that they'd be living again. To keep on living, to make things better, to love properly, to always appreciate everything. This is a much normal story, falling in love and get married, you broke up because you're scared of the distance, and in the end you just have to break up for real. This story also has a sequel, 86400. I couldn't really explain about this fic because it is too short but you can never not cry after reading this. I'll write more binary messages for you after this, just wait 😆
Well, there are the two fics that made my heart bleed and my eyes puffed. You should give reading a try. I know people are busy reading and learning for college and studies. But, make reading a habit. This is the only way for you to save yourself and your country. I am gonna move to Japan when I had the money because I love how they only minded their own business and not bother, I like it quiet. I want to read all my life. I wanna write too, since it's what I really need. I am doing what I like right now. Let's pray that I'll get the course I applied for my degree. I want to be a successful writer. Both this stories shares one word; writer. It is not that they were written by writers, of course it is. But, the main character are both writers. I don't actually plan this to happen or choose both this stories because they are writers, no. It's a coincidence since I just found this picture below. I'll give you a message to decipher again. So, let's play this game. I'll only communicate with you in binary, I'm gonna memorize all the codes and it is your task to decipher each of it because it is my secret love letter to you.
This is the message I need you to crack on your own. I think this is a sweet love letter. This is the website for you to change text to binary. Smuggler.
Secret lover : Hariz Azmi