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: Izzati Rahim

: Izzati Rahim

: Izzati Rahim

: izxarahim@yahoo.com


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2017; Fanfic Recs.


Assalamualaikum.

I planned to write in the dark just like other days and listening to a song on repeat makes me feel relieved. I once wrote a love letter to someone and suddenly today I am reminded of it. Those days were beautiful. And if you ever wondered do I regret having feelings, I'd say no. Because what I felt was genuine and I had no one to lie to. I may not be the best in conveying feelings, but when I do tell people I love them, it's sincere. Maybe because I don't talk to strangers and I don't even have friends who I cared a lot, I kept a few because I know I need some. I am not good at telling people I love them, so all I could do was write. I love writing since I was 5, don't believe me? It's okay. I still remember an essay I wrote about elephants in my reading comprehension book for my kindergarten. I really love English, I am not good at it too but as I grew older, I knew the importance of everything and how I love people and English, I need to work hard on it. I really wanted to write something nice, for people to read. I want people to feel the feelings I put in everything I wrote. I do things wholeheartedly since sincerity is what measured of everyone.

I'm gonna write about fanfics today. I have a few of my faves but I'll be listing only two since it's the content that matters not the quantity. I've been reading fics on Tumblr, but now I read it mostly on AsianFanFics or on Ao3 (if I don't have time to read it, I can download it straight to my phone), they're the best platform to read I could say since Tumblr is a bit messy and hard to read on mobile (for me lah). I've been into this fics world since last year because I don't really have interest on reading physical books anymore, it's heavy (I read thick books) but now I read mostly about EXO. Oh, forgive me, I am a very fanatic (read: obsessed) EXO fangirl, excuse me for that. But I read other things too, but mostly about guys being gay. I am a normal girl who likes guy (read: a man) and I am attracted to only men and have no intention of reading about homo that is (read: lesbian). I am certainly not attracted to reading about girls since I am a girl myself and I know about us and I don't want to condemn any girls for being a bitch. I used to read normal books about a guy and a girl but things get boring since Romeo and Juliet had bad ending plus I can't really react to things if it's too normal well I really am a weird person.

1. Anterograde Tomorrow


💋 This one, is so sad. I read this fic on my phone at 3am during my final exam week and I won't get out of my bed because this fic is so sad I think my soul just went for a walk. I cried really hard tho my roommate is sleeping but I remember to at least stuff a towel into my mouth so I won't make any sound. Remember me writing that I wanted to make a house surrounded with sunflowers? This is the ultimate reason. It's not they mentioned sunflowers in it but that is my favourite flower besides daisies. To me, sunflower means hope and sunshine. I don't really like the colour yellow but sunflowers are exception. Because sunflowers are beautiful. If someone would ever give me a sunflower, I'll be really thankful for the rest of my life. [The meaning of Sunflowers. Sunflowers symbolise adoration, loyalty and longevity. Much of the meaning of sunflowers stems from its namesake, the sun itself.] I've always dream on a path full with sunflowers holding someone's hand so dearly and won't even think of letting go. This fic is guyxguy. So, if you truly are a person to forbids LGBTQ or being racist, I don't really want you to read this. It involves death, depression, addiction to smoking and medication, sad feelings and amnesia. I am even crying while writing this, I'm sorry. So, let me tell you this story. What would you do if the person you love, doesn't remember you everytime a new day starts? What would you do if you really love that person, but you can't remember, even you knew it deep inside? It struck me the most when you are dying and yet you still want another day to live by his side but you know you can't. To live a live without regret is what I really wished for all this time. That is why I promised myself that I need to be better and not to regret anything. I'm saying this once, it's dark. Don't enter if you're scared.




2. 10080

💋 This too involves death but this is shorter. This is the fic that makes me wanna write messages in binary code. Life is sweet I tell you. You fall in love, you live together, and then it's death. In between, you just need to fall out of love huh? Listen to me rant please. I really hoped for happy ending, sincerely each time. But I don't really get what it means. At the verge of death, one knows just to wish that they'd be living again. To keep on living, to make things better, to love properly, to always appreciate everything. This is a much normal story, falling in love and get married, you broke up because you're scared of the distance, and in the end you just have to break up for real. This story also has a sequel, 86400. I couldn't really explain about this fic because it is too short but you can never not cry after reading this. I'll write more binary messages for you after this, just wait 😆



Well, there are the two fics that made my heart bleed and my eyes puffed. You should give reading a try. I know people are busy reading and learning for college and studies. But, make reading a habit. This is the only way for you to save yourself and your country. I am gonna move to Japan when I had the money because I love how they only minded their own business and not bother, I like it quiet. I want to read all my life. I wanna write too, since it's what I really need. I am doing what I like right now. Let's pray that I'll get the course I applied for my degree. I want to be a successful writer. Both this stories shares one word; writer. It is not that they were written by writers, of course it is. But, the main character are both writers. I don't actually plan this to happen or choose both this stories because they are writers, no. It's a coincidence since I just found this picture below. I'll give you a message to decipher again. So, let's play this game. I'll only communicate with you in binary, I'm gonna memorize all the codes and it is your task to decipher each of it because it is my secret love letter to you.  



This is the message I need you to crack on your own. I think this is a sweet love letter. This is the website for you to change text to binary. Smuggler.

"010010000110100100100000011011000110100101110100011101000110110001100101001000000
1100010011001010110000101101110001011000010000001001001001000000110110001101111011
1011001100101001000000111100101101111011101010010111000100000000011010000101000001
1010000101001001110011011110010000001101101011000010111010001110100011001010111001
0001000000110100001101111011101110010000001101100011010010110011001100101001000000
11100000110100101101110011100110010000001111001011011110111010100100000011001000110
11110111011101101110001011000010000001001001001001110110110001101100001000000110011
10110100101110110011001010010000001111001011011110111010100100000011100110111010001
11001001100101011011100110011101110100011010000010000001110100011011110010000001101
10101101111011101100110010100100000011110010110111101110101001011100010000001001110
0110111100100000011011010110000101110100011101000110010101110010001000000110100001
10111101110111001000000110110101110101011000110110100000100000011011110110011000100
00001001011011110010111010101101110011001110111001101101111011011110010000001001001
0010000001101100011011110111011001100101001011000010000001001001001001110110110001
10110000100000011011000110111101110110011001010010000001111001011011110111010100100
0000110000100100000011011000110100101110100011101000110110001100101001000000110110
0011001010111001101110011001000000111010001101000011000010110111000100000011010000
1101001011011010010111000100000010010000110000101101000011000010010110000100000011
0001001100101011000110110000101110101011100110110010100100000010010110111100101110
10101101110011001110111001101101111011011110010000001101001011100110010000001110100
0110100001100101001000000110110001101111011101100110010100100000011011110110011000
1000000110110101111001001000000110110001101001011001100110010100101100001000000111
10010110111101110101001000000110001101100001011011100010011101110100001000000110111
0011001010111011001100101011100100010000001100010011001010110000101110100001000000
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0011011011110110111100100000011010010111001100100000011101000110100001100101001000
0001110101011011000111010001101001011011010110000101110100011001010010000001110000
01100101011100100111001101101111011011100010000001001001001001110110110001101100001
00000011000010110110001110111011000010111100101110011001000000110110001101111011101
1001100101001000000110100101101110001000000110110101111001001000000110110001101001
0110011001100101001011100010000001001001001001110110110001101100001000000111000001
11010101110100001000000111100101101111011101010010000001110011011001010110001101101
1110110111001100100001000000110001001110101011101000010000001001001001000000111001
1011101000110100101101100011011000010000001101100011011110111011001100101001000000
11110010110111101110101001000000111001001101001011001110110100001110100001111110010
0000000011010000101000001101000010100101100101101111011101010010000001110011011010
0001101111011101010110110001100100001000000110001001100101001000000110011101110010
0110000101110100011001010110011001110101011011000010000001110100011010000110000101
1101000010000001001001001000000110010101110110011001010110111000100000011011000110
11110111011001100101001000000111100101101111011101010010111000100000010101000110100
0011000010110111001101011001000000110110101100101001000000110011001101111011100100
0100000011101000110100001100001011101000010111000100000000011010000101000001101000
01010010010010010000001101100011011110111011001100101001000000111100101101111011101
0100101110001000000100101001110101011100110111010000100000011001000110111101101110
00100111011101000010000001100110011011110111001001100111011001010111010000100000011
1010001101000011000010111010000100000010010010010000001101100011011110111011001100
1010010000001111001011011110111010100101110001000000000110100001010000011010000101
0010010010010000001110000011011000110000101101110001000000111010001101111001000000
1101100011010010111011001100101001000000110110101111001001000000110110001101001011
0011001100101001000000110000101110011001000000110001001100101011000010111010101110
1000110100101100110011101010110110000100000011010010111010000100000011000110110000
1011011100010000001100010011001010010111000100000010010010010000001100001011011010
01000000110011101101111011011100110111001100001001000000110110101100001011100100111
0010011110010010000001111001011011110111010100101100001000000100010001101111001000
00010010110111100101110101011011100110011101110011011011110110111100101110001000000
10010010010000001101100011011110111011001100101001000000111100101101111011101010010
11000010000001000100011011110010000001001011011110010111010101101110011001110111001
10110111101101111001011100010000001001001001000000110110001101111011101100110010100
10000001111001011011110111010100100000011100110110111100100000011011010111010101100
0110110100000101100001000000100010001101111001000000100101101111001011101010110111
0011001110111001101101111011011110010111000100000000011010000101000001101000010100
1000100010011110010000001001011010110010101010101001110010001110010000001010011010
0111101001111001011100010000001010011010000010101001001000001010011100100011101001
0000100000101000101010110010100111100100001"

Assalamualaikum. 

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